It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look, this person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past, is now walking right past you, seeing right through you. -katherineyu

Sometimes we, I, get caught up in talking to someone we enjoy as company by nonstop texting, waiting for their name to pop up onto our screens and we turn in excitement wanting to know what they will say next after another. They’ve become more of a daily routine now and it just so familiar to the point when you don’t get a reply back it becomes out of the ordinary. Then that’s what happens… You start to fade away from each other maybe because something went wrong. Every text becomes duller and duller until you barely get a couple words back or even a reply. One day everything you’ve “used to” forms into dust like nothing, non existent. You scroll down your contacts list to come across their name, click option, and even though its hard you just have to delete their number because they’re no longer in your lives and they have already been better, moved on. Then you sit here today, wishing you knew how they were doing maybe have a catch up even for a quick second, it doesn’t have to be long. As long as you know they are doing alright, to bad the best thing you tried to do was to forget that person by erasing them out of everything. Funny, how they can’t be permanently forgotten because sometimes they linger into your mind unexpectedly.

Talking to you isn’t even the same anymore. Every single one of our conversations lasts within about 5-10 text messages. The majority of the time I’m the one to stop texting you because honestly I can’t really talk to you like I used too. By that I mean, I feel like I can’t be myself with you anymore. Ever since time has gone by from when we last talked a barrier had been built between us. I stopped smiling whenever you come into mind, we stopped our friendship “bond”, we’re not even friends anymore. At least that’s what it feels like. Time separates friendships “bonds”. 

There comes a point in time when I just want to give up and not fight anymore. It’s the safest play from hurting myself. Hurting myself by jealousy kicking in, becoming low-key attached, and doubts collide my thoughts. What if the worth of this doesn’t make it all up in the end? Would I just want to go ahead and screw myself over again or prepare for whatever happens? I feel like whether I try or not there’s plenty of more options.

The worst thing about being in a downfall is trying to avoid dragging people down with you. That what i hate. Pulling away from people just so you don’t get in the way of their happiness, just the time when you need them most but you stop yourself. When you try to hide every aspect of being hurt, because when you’re bruised the pain can spread.

I have so much respect towards the guys who can hold themselves together and just be friends with a girl who has a man. Vice-versa a girl who doesn’t flirt with a taken man. Altogether I respect those who respect that a person has a significant other. Now that’s loyalty. 

I hate it when someone keeps trying to get at someone and persuade them that the person’s better off with them. What the hell. Get yourself together and stop acting like you can get anyone you want.

I have moments here and there, feeling so out of place. The feeling like you don’t belong no matter how hard you try to fit in. Everything at a point feels so right but yet feels so wrong. This feeling.. it feels like you’re stuck between a barrier of walls surrounding you, no where to run, no where to hide. That moment of silence in your head, whispering in your mind “do i belong?” You speak your words in silence, nobody knowing what you’re saying as no one hears you.

Stfu. In my opinion only cocky people say that. I mean there’s nothing wrong with being confident but when you become over-confident to the point when you think you’re to good for anyone else.. yeah you need to go. No one care’s if you have this or that, no care’s if you can get whatever you want. I hate it when there are those people who just think they have everything good for them all the damn time.

I miss all the people that I “used” to talk to that now I don’t keep in contact with anymore. When we would have the weirdest conversations, texting/talking on the phone. But hey I could sit here and complain all day how so many people have drifted away and yet not do anything about it. That’s my biggest issue, telling people “i miss you, let’s change all this and talk again.” yet it never happens. If it did happen it would probably only last a day with a “how have you been? Anything new? What’s up, what’re you doing? How’s your summer?” blah blah blah blah. I really hate it. I’m missing all these people right now, and all the days passing by since i haven’t spoken a word to them.